just want to feel free 'I was Fool'

.......................enough !! I'am tired to face this situation..............
Whatever ... I just want to live my life as normal not much to think of something uncertain I'am TIRED 
It's up to them, it's up to me! I play my own feelings and I may end up to be mocked up my own act of ! I was in a black spot dark and gloomy.. too stupid and immature it's ME !
I like what ???
I was how ???
I will be what ???
I hate to think about that !! about my self  Too Tired !!! 

the next day would be like what I never knew .. I was too stupid to think too stupid to act 'I was a fool'
now I can only say to myself 'whatever are you going to live through today and tomorrow will come and be ready to challenge you have never imagined'
I was too stupid
can not distinguish between thoughts and feelings

what life would be like me today, tomorrow and in days to come   ............ 
I do not want to think about it today 
Enough....... 

I'm tired of my thoughts...
I'am tired with my feelings... 
 
leave me alone ...............................................................................

Really DIZZY !!!!!!!